I think I'm going to stay closer to the command center than I initially planned...just sort of freaked myself out, overthought it, and realized that I'm not in the mood after all. Its the strangest thing, I can still recall exactly what she wore, where we sat, basically everything we did that night. You know, once I get to the point where I can't say that anymore, that's when I'll have (re)arrived. In all honesty it shouldn't take too long...its already a little blurry. Maybe I find someone who can distract me or something.
I can't recall if I blogged it or not but when you've been out of the scene for four and a half of the last five years you sort of lose the interpersonal edge. Spending the last six months of that timeframe feeling like the walls are your best friends and most avid fans doesn't help either. Someone recently gave me some advice on that, get back in church and get reconnected. Uh, negative on the reconnection ghostrider. I can only speak for myself and it isn't aimed at any particular place of worship but that was no lie the most stressful social situation I've been in in the last half-decade. Lots of the people there, or at least a handful of them, and I have had some uh, "history" and it felt way strange to say the least. In any event, I'm sure I'll get to the point where I'm over all that and ready to get back in the game but its just a matter of taking the time for the synapses to realign and reconnect. So we'll see. I'm sure you'll see the occasional nonsensical ravings on here. Just me working out the synaptic reconnection and stuff